Hi, all! Want to share with you our pain because it seems like if I keep it inside I'll explode.
So, I and my husband (not officialy) decided to go through surrogacy program. I am....was biological father. I know a lot of gay couples which use surrogacy as a good option for becoming parents. When we started our program in one of European clinics we were so inspired that soon we will become happy parent of a cute baby girl or baby boy. There was no matter of gender we just wanted to be a family with a child. Everything was ok till the 7th week. On the 7th week of pregnancy our surrogate had a miscarriage.
It is hard. It looks like our heart died together with that child. We feel ourselves like we don't have a reason to wake up in the morning.
We used economy package which doesn't include a few attemps, so according to the contract we had one and only attempt for fertilization and as a result for pregnancy. We even didn't talk about the possibility of miscarriage, in our heads it looked like ....if she is pregnant we are already parents for 100%
and now we don't know what to do and where to go, we are in total frustration. We feel like our child died and there are no way out and no medicines to heal this pain.
How to cope with it and how to move further?